So its been a while since I last wrote.. Not much has happend..
I went home to mom & dad's house on the 13th and boy was it nice.. Nothing better than moms cooking!! Oh and someone else doing my laundry for once!! (Thank you mom!) Its always nice to go back to your roots and to spend time with the ones who molded you to be the person you are today, I really feel like I have grown so much as a person through the years that I haven't lived at home. I love that my mom has become my best friend but is still my mother at the same time, I know that she doubts me and the decisions but she still remains by my side no matter what. I miss having my siblings around everyday, I sometimes lose sight of how awesome my siblings are. I miss the laughter that my brother brings to conversations, I swear this man can take the saddest story and bring you to tears with laughter!! Some day ask him about the midget that he watched at his work.. BEST STORY EVER!! I didn't get to spend much time with either one of my siblings but I cherish the memories we've had growing up, we are all doing our own thing now.. Jeff's married, Jessica is making life changing decisions and well I am here doing my thing too. Its still strange to think of my brother as someones husband, not to mention even stranger to see his wedding band on his finger!! God.. He's almost been married 6 months already!!
Its late now and I should go to bed.. I'll continue tomorrow...
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
What the?!
OMG I am sooo pissed off right now, after reading this I am pissed!!
"Now, about what you said about your girl. That's not right. Not right at all. You shouldn't feel that way. I know you are 100% sure she's a good women but it almost sounds like she's not. You work 2 jobs. That's a lot to put on yourself. I know there are always 2 sides of every story BUT if she thinks that you should work two jobs, do ALOT of stuff around the house (not saying you shouldn't help out) but don't have time for yourself. Then there is a problem. Jeff... I want you to really think about this before you go down that road. I don't want you to be in the same position I am in."
Apparently Jeffrey has reconnected via Facebook with a female that he went to school with, they have been writing back and forth and when I seen the first sentance of what she wrote back I questioned him about who she was and why he was talking shit about me. I am not a jealous type but DON'T BE SHIT TALKING!! He "claims" that he was talking about the money problems we have and how it effects our relationship, I'm sorry but reading her response thats NOT what it seems like to me. I logged into his Facebook to see what he had written to provoke a response like that but he's deleted all traces of messages from his inbox.
I can't even write anymore.. I am about to burst out crying. How am I to marry someone that does this to me?
Until the end of time,
Jennifer.
Edit: Its 1:11am and he is sleeping, strange that he has changed his password for his Facebook account and completely cleared his email inbox and deleted messages. Something doesn't feel right.
"Now, about what you said about your girl. That's not right. Not right at all. You shouldn't feel that way. I know you are 100% sure she's a good women but it almost sounds like she's not. You work 2 jobs. That's a lot to put on yourself. I know there are always 2 sides of every story BUT if she thinks that you should work two jobs, do ALOT of stuff around the house (not saying you shouldn't help out) but don't have time for yourself. Then there is a problem. Jeff... I want you to really think about this before you go down that road. I don't want you to be in the same position I am in."
Apparently Jeffrey has reconnected via Facebook with a female that he went to school with, they have been writing back and forth and when I seen the first sentance of what she wrote back I questioned him about who she was and why he was talking shit about me. I am not a jealous type but DON'T BE SHIT TALKING!! He "claims" that he was talking about the money problems we have and how it effects our relationship, I'm sorry but reading her response thats NOT what it seems like to me. I logged into his Facebook to see what he had written to provoke a response like that but he's deleted all traces of messages from his inbox.
I can't even write anymore.. I am about to burst out crying. How am I to marry someone that does this to me?
Until the end of time,
Jennifer.
Edit: Its 1:11am and he is sleeping, strange that he has changed his password for his Facebook account and completely cleared his email inbox and deleted messages. Something doesn't feel right.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Are you the Biggest Loser?
Damn these shows! You would think that watching this show would motivate me to begin my own weight loss, yet here I sit munching on Doritos nacho chips!!
Jeffrey and I are getting married in 7 months & 21 days from today, I dread trying on the wedding dress I have picked out! My dress is perfect and everything I wanted in a dress, lets be honest.. I hate dresses! Strange thing is I look forward to wearing this dress, I know its a bizarre statement but its true. I have set a goal of losing 40 pounds before our wedding, 40 pounds in 7 months? Is that possible?!! Eating a fatty bag of nachos is NOT the way to lose these 40 pounds!!!
I pay $32.00 a month for a gym membership that I don't even use, but I tell myself every week that this is the week I will start going after work. Most know that I have always had a love for both basketball and volleyball, fear has taking those two passions away. Fear of re-injuring my knee and going through the same heartache that I did when I was 16 years old. These sports are what kept me in shape in my teenage years, not only did they keep me in shape but kept me from getting in trouble in school as well. Deep down I miss the rush being on either court with my mind focused and heart in the game. I want that feeling back soo bad, what stops me from following through on it? Fear.. and fear itself is what stops me!
I often wonder where did all the weight gain come from, how did it all happen? I went from being 135-140 pounds to my current weight of 192 pounds. 192 pounds disgusts me.. I hate that number with a passion!! Stress has a huge part to play in the weight gain, I have come to see that when I am stressed I eat.. when I am bored.. I eat.. I stress at the mention of money or debt, I don't have much of either but I do work hard for what I have. I have learned to control the stress I do have but its much harder than I thought. Each person has an outlet that helps them relieve stress.. Mine should not be food but instead basketball.
- Goals for the months ahead -
Face the fear head on.
Lose 40 pounds.
Change my outlet to what really works for me.
Please pray and send encouraging thoughts my way, if you have any food tips or fitness routines then pass those along too.
Until the end of time,
Jennifer.
Jeffrey and I are getting married in 7 months & 21 days from today, I dread trying on the wedding dress I have picked out! My dress is perfect and everything I wanted in a dress, lets be honest.. I hate dresses! Strange thing is I look forward to wearing this dress, I know its a bizarre statement but its true. I have set a goal of losing 40 pounds before our wedding, 40 pounds in 7 months? Is that possible?!! Eating a fatty bag of nachos is NOT the way to lose these 40 pounds!!!
I pay $32.00 a month for a gym membership that I don't even use, but I tell myself every week that this is the week I will start going after work. Most know that I have always had a love for both basketball and volleyball, fear has taking those two passions away. Fear of re-injuring my knee and going through the same heartache that I did when I was 16 years old. These sports are what kept me in shape in my teenage years, not only did they keep me in shape but kept me from getting in trouble in school as well. Deep down I miss the rush being on either court with my mind focused and heart in the game. I want that feeling back soo bad, what stops me from following through on it? Fear.. and fear itself is what stops me!
I often wonder where did all the weight gain come from, how did it all happen? I went from being 135-140 pounds to my current weight of 192 pounds. 192 pounds disgusts me.. I hate that number with a passion!! Stress has a huge part to play in the weight gain, I have come to see that when I am stressed I eat.. when I am bored.. I eat.. I stress at the mention of money or debt, I don't have much of either but I do work hard for what I have. I have learned to control the stress I do have but its much harder than I thought. Each person has an outlet that helps them relieve stress.. Mine should not be food but instead basketball.
- Goals for the months ahead -
Face the fear head on.
Lose 40 pounds.
Change my outlet to what really works for me.
Please pray and send encouraging thoughts my way, if you have any food tips or fitness routines then pass those along too.
Until the end of time,
Jennifer.
Welcome..
I'm creating this blog in hopes that it will relieve some of the stresses I have deep inside my heart, in the end I am in search of the old me with a mix of the current me.
Be for warned.. Some topics may appear completely random and jumbled with thoughts, most I hope will come out as I feel them in my heart.
Until the end of time,
Jennifer.
Be for warned.. Some topics may appear completely random and jumbled with thoughts, most I hope will come out as I feel them in my heart.
Until the end of time,
Jennifer.
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