Remember the things that made you glad, forget the things that made you sad. Remember the friends that are always there by you, forget those that proved untrue. Always remember that you are the most important person in your life. Treat yourself with LOVE & Respect. Celebrate the fact that you are alive. The past is gone so... it cannot be undone. All we can do is learn from it to help for a better future, which is yet to come.
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Saturday, September 25, 2010
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
I'm back.
Life is stressful and I hate stress, we have had a string of hard times and I just want to for once just live stress free! Jeffrey is not working now and its just my income supporting us, being behind in bills and rent is taking its toll on me. We are supposed to be moving after our lease is up here but we have no money saved up and with being behind in bills it all seems impossible! I keep thinking of how we are going to get moved and caught up and its overwhelming, my only solution is getting a small loan through Target Credit Union. But like most other times we look at loans we don't have the credit for it or we need a co signer, its all just so damn frustrating.
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Monday, January 4, 2010
Its been quite a long while..
Wow, I guess I should log into this more often then I do!! Alot has happened since March!!
Hmmm.. Brief summeries of each month..
April - This was a daunting month because Jeffrey was in a serious car accident and was taken to the hospital, ended up having 2 cracked ribs and 2 fratures in his fibia and tibia. Not cool at all!! It was tough to have to deal with him being in pain and being the only income in the household since he was off work for 2 months. Along with him not working I found out that the company I worked for was going out of business at the end of April. One month was all we had left to get rid of everything in the store, shitty timing for me to be losing my job.
May - We went off to Oregon to scope out our wedding site and apply for our marriage licence, this was a trip of many emotions after having to go through the whole car accident ordeal and to have him be on crutches and pretty immobile. We applied for our marriage certificate in Astoria and did some wedding shopping for the groomsmen and random stuff we needed for the wedding, it was still 2 months away but time flew for sure.
June - Was pretty relaxed for the most part, we did a lot of wedding planning and such since I was no longer employed. Watching your pride and joy get torn to shreds by asshole customers was the worst, I only showed up everyday until the very end because I was the only income and I had a responsibility to support my family.
July - Was the big month for us.. I married the love of my life July 11th, 2009 in Clatskanie Oregon. Ohh what a feeling it was to walk down the aisle and exchange vows with the man I will spend the rest of my life with. It was a small 40 person wedding with our most intimate family & friends, windy and slightly cold but that was a given since we were on the Columbia River.
August - Was low key as we just enjoyed being married and taking the time to enjoy each others company, nothing really worth writing home about happened! Ohh wait.. my sister got engaged to her boyfriend of 2 years Ryan! This was an exciting moment as a big sister, I was lucky enough to have her stand beside me at my wedding and she asked me to stand beside her at her own wedding. They set a tenitive date for April 2012 but as I write this the date has change to April 30th, 2011.
September - We took a trip down to Southern California to see Jeffrey's family. This was the first time I would meet his Uncle Ken, Aunt Cindy, cousins Christina & Brandon, and his grandparents. I at times felt as though I didn't fit the "Southern California style" that they all upheld.. I am most comfortable in jean and t-shirt not 20lbs of make up and fancy Gucci/Coach stuff.
October - Nothing super exciting happened, my brother and his wife celebrated their first wedding anniversary and I went home for Thanksgiving.
November - Another boring month for the most part, I was still job hunting with no luck. We took my parents to see Jeff Dunham in Tacoma. I have never seen my parents laugh so much in one night! We added another addition to our family, Jeffrey and mom picked out a small little kitty whom we named Sadie. She's so tiny and cute and although it took a week for her and Milo to get use to each other they are buddies now.
December - We spent our first Christmas as husband and wife down in Southern California with Jeffrey's family.. That was a different change of scenery for once, I know he wanted to be with his family since we always get to see mine but it felt like just another vacation instead of Christmas.
Well that's the jist of the last few months leading to January 2010! A whole new year of excitement and hopefully less stress then 2009!
Until the end of time,
Jennifer.
Hmmm.. Brief summeries of each month..
April - This was a daunting month because Jeffrey was in a serious car accident and was taken to the hospital, ended up having 2 cracked ribs and 2 fratures in his fibia and tibia. Not cool at all!! It was tough to have to deal with him being in pain and being the only income in the household since he was off work for 2 months. Along with him not working I found out that the company I worked for was going out of business at the end of April. One month was all we had left to get rid of everything in the store, shitty timing for me to be losing my job.
May - We went off to Oregon to scope out our wedding site and apply for our marriage licence, this was a trip of many emotions after having to go through the whole car accident ordeal and to have him be on crutches and pretty immobile. We applied for our marriage certificate in Astoria and did some wedding shopping for the groomsmen and random stuff we needed for the wedding, it was still 2 months away but time flew for sure.
June - Was pretty relaxed for the most part, we did a lot of wedding planning and such since I was no longer employed. Watching your pride and joy get torn to shreds by asshole customers was the worst, I only showed up everyday until the very end because I was the only income and I had a responsibility to support my family.
July - Was the big month for us.. I married the love of my life July 11th, 2009 in Clatskanie Oregon. Ohh what a feeling it was to walk down the aisle and exchange vows with the man I will spend the rest of my life with. It was a small 40 person wedding with our most intimate family & friends, windy and slightly cold but that was a given since we were on the Columbia River.
August - Was low key as we just enjoyed being married and taking the time to enjoy each others company, nothing really worth writing home about happened! Ohh wait.. my sister got engaged to her boyfriend of 2 years Ryan! This was an exciting moment as a big sister, I was lucky enough to have her stand beside me at my wedding and she asked me to stand beside her at her own wedding. They set a tenitive date for April 2012 but as I write this the date has change to April 30th, 2011.
September - We took a trip down to Southern California to see Jeffrey's family. This was the first time I would meet his Uncle Ken, Aunt Cindy, cousins Christina & Brandon, and his grandparents. I at times felt as though I didn't fit the "Southern California style" that they all upheld.. I am most comfortable in jean and t-shirt not 20lbs of make up and fancy Gucci/Coach stuff.
October - Nothing super exciting happened, my brother and his wife celebrated their first wedding anniversary and I went home for Thanksgiving.
November - Another boring month for the most part, I was still job hunting with no luck. We took my parents to see Jeff Dunham in Tacoma. I have never seen my parents laugh so much in one night! We added another addition to our family, Jeffrey and mom picked out a small little kitty whom we named Sadie. She's so tiny and cute and although it took a week for her and Milo to get use to each other they are buddies now.
December - We spent our first Christmas as husband and wife down in Southern California with Jeffrey's family.. That was a different change of scenery for once, I know he wanted to be with his family since we always get to see mine but it felt like just another vacation instead of Christmas.
Well that's the jist of the last few months leading to January 2010! A whole new year of excitement and hopefully less stress then 2009!
Until the end of time,
Jennifer.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Been a while..
So its been a while since I last wrote.. Not much has happend..
I went home to mom & dad's house on the 13th and boy was it nice.. Nothing better than moms cooking!! Oh and someone else doing my laundry for once!! (Thank you mom!) Its always nice to go back to your roots and to spend time with the ones who molded you to be the person you are today, I really feel like I have grown so much as a person through the years that I haven't lived at home. I love that my mom has become my best friend but is still my mother at the same time, I know that she doubts me and the decisions but she still remains by my side no matter what. I miss having my siblings around everyday, I sometimes lose sight of how awesome my siblings are. I miss the laughter that my brother brings to conversations, I swear this man can take the saddest story and bring you to tears with laughter!! Some day ask him about the midget that he watched at his work.. BEST STORY EVER!! I didn't get to spend much time with either one of my siblings but I cherish the memories we've had growing up, we are all doing our own thing now.. Jeff's married, Jessica is making life changing decisions and well I am here doing my thing too. Its still strange to think of my brother as someones husband, not to mention even stranger to see his wedding band on his finger!! God.. He's almost been married 6 months already!!
Its late now and I should go to bed.. I'll continue tomorrow...
I went home to mom & dad's house on the 13th and boy was it nice.. Nothing better than moms cooking!! Oh and someone else doing my laundry for once!! (Thank you mom!) Its always nice to go back to your roots and to spend time with the ones who molded you to be the person you are today, I really feel like I have grown so much as a person through the years that I haven't lived at home. I love that my mom has become my best friend but is still my mother at the same time, I know that she doubts me and the decisions but she still remains by my side no matter what. I miss having my siblings around everyday, I sometimes lose sight of how awesome my siblings are. I miss the laughter that my brother brings to conversations, I swear this man can take the saddest story and bring you to tears with laughter!! Some day ask him about the midget that he watched at his work.. BEST STORY EVER!! I didn't get to spend much time with either one of my siblings but I cherish the memories we've had growing up, we are all doing our own thing now.. Jeff's married, Jessica is making life changing decisions and well I am here doing my thing too. Its still strange to think of my brother as someones husband, not to mention even stranger to see his wedding band on his finger!! God.. He's almost been married 6 months already!!
Its late now and I should go to bed.. I'll continue tomorrow...
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
What the?!
OMG I am sooo pissed off right now, after reading this I am pissed!!
"Now, about what you said about your girl. That's not right. Not right at all. You shouldn't feel that way. I know you are 100% sure she's a good women but it almost sounds like she's not. You work 2 jobs. That's a lot to put on yourself. I know there are always 2 sides of every story BUT if she thinks that you should work two jobs, do ALOT of stuff around the house (not saying you shouldn't help out) but don't have time for yourself. Then there is a problem. Jeff... I want you to really think about this before you go down that road. I don't want you to be in the same position I am in."
Apparently Jeffrey has reconnected via Facebook with a female that he went to school with, they have been writing back and forth and when I seen the first sentance of what she wrote back I questioned him about who she was and why he was talking shit about me. I am not a jealous type but DON'T BE SHIT TALKING!! He "claims" that he was talking about the money problems we have and how it effects our relationship, I'm sorry but reading her response thats NOT what it seems like to me. I logged into his Facebook to see what he had written to provoke a response like that but he's deleted all traces of messages from his inbox.
I can't even write anymore.. I am about to burst out crying. How am I to marry someone that does this to me?
Until the end of time,
Jennifer.
Edit: Its 1:11am and he is sleeping, strange that he has changed his password for his Facebook account and completely cleared his email inbox and deleted messages. Something doesn't feel right.
"Now, about what you said about your girl. That's not right. Not right at all. You shouldn't feel that way. I know you are 100% sure she's a good women but it almost sounds like she's not. You work 2 jobs. That's a lot to put on yourself. I know there are always 2 sides of every story BUT if she thinks that you should work two jobs, do ALOT of stuff around the house (not saying you shouldn't help out) but don't have time for yourself. Then there is a problem. Jeff... I want you to really think about this before you go down that road. I don't want you to be in the same position I am in."
Apparently Jeffrey has reconnected via Facebook with a female that he went to school with, they have been writing back and forth and when I seen the first sentance of what she wrote back I questioned him about who she was and why he was talking shit about me. I am not a jealous type but DON'T BE SHIT TALKING!! He "claims" that he was talking about the money problems we have and how it effects our relationship, I'm sorry but reading her response thats NOT what it seems like to me. I logged into his Facebook to see what he had written to provoke a response like that but he's deleted all traces of messages from his inbox.
I can't even write anymore.. I am about to burst out crying. How am I to marry someone that does this to me?
Until the end of time,
Jennifer.
Edit: Its 1:11am and he is sleeping, strange that he has changed his password for his Facebook account and completely cleared his email inbox and deleted messages. Something doesn't feel right.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Are you the Biggest Loser?
Damn these shows! You would think that watching this show would motivate me to begin my own weight loss, yet here I sit munching on Doritos nacho chips!!
Jeffrey and I are getting married in 7 months & 21 days from today, I dread trying on the wedding dress I have picked out! My dress is perfect and everything I wanted in a dress, lets be honest.. I hate dresses! Strange thing is I look forward to wearing this dress, I know its a bizarre statement but its true. I have set a goal of losing 40 pounds before our wedding, 40 pounds in 7 months? Is that possible?!! Eating a fatty bag of nachos is NOT the way to lose these 40 pounds!!!
I pay $32.00 a month for a gym membership that I don't even use, but I tell myself every week that this is the week I will start going after work. Most know that I have always had a love for both basketball and volleyball, fear has taking those two passions away. Fear of re-injuring my knee and going through the same heartache that I did when I was 16 years old. These sports are what kept me in shape in my teenage years, not only did they keep me in shape but kept me from getting in trouble in school as well. Deep down I miss the rush being on either court with my mind focused and heart in the game. I want that feeling back soo bad, what stops me from following through on it? Fear.. and fear itself is what stops me!
I often wonder where did all the weight gain come from, how did it all happen? I went from being 135-140 pounds to my current weight of 192 pounds. 192 pounds disgusts me.. I hate that number with a passion!! Stress has a huge part to play in the weight gain, I have come to see that when I am stressed I eat.. when I am bored.. I eat.. I stress at the mention of money or debt, I don't have much of either but I do work hard for what I have. I have learned to control the stress I do have but its much harder than I thought. Each person has an outlet that helps them relieve stress.. Mine should not be food but instead basketball.
- Goals for the months ahead -
Face the fear head on.
Lose 40 pounds.
Change my outlet to what really works for me.
Please pray and send encouraging thoughts my way, if you have any food tips or fitness routines then pass those along too.
Until the end of time,
Jennifer.
Jeffrey and I are getting married in 7 months & 21 days from today, I dread trying on the wedding dress I have picked out! My dress is perfect and everything I wanted in a dress, lets be honest.. I hate dresses! Strange thing is I look forward to wearing this dress, I know its a bizarre statement but its true. I have set a goal of losing 40 pounds before our wedding, 40 pounds in 7 months? Is that possible?!! Eating a fatty bag of nachos is NOT the way to lose these 40 pounds!!!
I pay $32.00 a month for a gym membership that I don't even use, but I tell myself every week that this is the week I will start going after work. Most know that I have always had a love for both basketball and volleyball, fear has taking those two passions away. Fear of re-injuring my knee and going through the same heartache that I did when I was 16 years old. These sports are what kept me in shape in my teenage years, not only did they keep me in shape but kept me from getting in trouble in school as well. Deep down I miss the rush being on either court with my mind focused and heart in the game. I want that feeling back soo bad, what stops me from following through on it? Fear.. and fear itself is what stops me!
I often wonder where did all the weight gain come from, how did it all happen? I went from being 135-140 pounds to my current weight of 192 pounds. 192 pounds disgusts me.. I hate that number with a passion!! Stress has a huge part to play in the weight gain, I have come to see that when I am stressed I eat.. when I am bored.. I eat.. I stress at the mention of money or debt, I don't have much of either but I do work hard for what I have. I have learned to control the stress I do have but its much harder than I thought. Each person has an outlet that helps them relieve stress.. Mine should not be food but instead basketball.
- Goals for the months ahead -
Face the fear head on.
Lose 40 pounds.
Change my outlet to what really works for me.
Please pray and send encouraging thoughts my way, if you have any food tips or fitness routines then pass those along too.
Until the end of time,
Jennifer.
Welcome..
I'm creating this blog in hopes that it will relieve some of the stresses I have deep inside my heart, in the end I am in search of the old me with a mix of the current me.
Be for warned.. Some topics may appear completely random and jumbled with thoughts, most I hope will come out as I feel them in my heart.
Until the end of time,
Jennifer.
Be for warned.. Some topics may appear completely random and jumbled with thoughts, most I hope will come out as I feel them in my heart.
Until the end of time,
Jennifer.
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